damn , meet love just now . and we fought cause of some messages in my phone . messages from Firas and Aidid . he was so fcuking angry . haizz . im soo sorry . kiter stakat msg onlyy . tk laa sampai i love you semue kn . but still, don't know laa . stress xia aku giniey . this is the reason bby why i think we are better off friends . not that i don want us to be together but our fights are getting more worst xia . and i hate to think wat will happen to us in the future . damn ! you know wat type of girl i am . but eventhough im like that . i know who i love and i know my fcuking limits . and i TAK AKAN TIMER ! i won't ! ): now im the one who needs the timeoff . argghh . ohh god . please give me the strength to go through this . i know im strong . well maybe . haizzz . kay fine , you nak contack nan dier balek ? then go ahead . i will keep my mouth shut . i never want to say or tegoh anything anymore . i won't be angry and jeolous no more . no i try not to . i P.R.O.M.I.S.E . cause i think u don want me to care anymore or interfere in ur relationship with whoever . thanks for giving me my freedom . U say i tk trust you, well u don trust me too . what do ya expect . if someday it get worst and u're leaving me , all i want from u is for u to please not to forget me and everything we used to be . the ups and dwns . the fights . the times we spend together and the troubles we gt into together . *tears rolling dwn* alritee ? haizz . i hope this would never happen . if it does , im gonna be single and now i really mean it . had enough of heartbreaks . one after another . and i don want anymore .

~ love , you can do wateva you want from now on and im not gonna stop u . im just gonna keep quiet even if its hurting me . cause i think its the best for our relationship . and thats all i cn do . no more fights no more crying and no more hurting each other . )': even if the girl flirts with u or wateva , im just gonna cry alone each night but not wanting to say aniting . hoping for the best . if you might happen to fall for her , i promise you that im gonna back out and wish u good luck just to see u happy . love, im happy if u are . and one more thing , promise me that even if we are not together , u would stay out of troubles and never start on you know wat again kay . that is all i want from youu . i will hold on no matter wat . cause yes, i love you and its true . )': i don wanna lose you . but it seems . haizz . im speechless . i want the old zhaff who would talk nicely to me and not scold me . i want you to explain why u're angry in a nice way and not shouting at me . the old zhaff that wouldn't push me away when i hug him or hold his hand no matter how angry he is . and i want the old us . in fact, i want the old zhaff that is really patient with me . ohh . where is my old loving zhaff gone to ?

when tady , kita gadoh, he tros called his friend making appointment here and there . baby , dulu u tk gitu . u would not even touch ur fcuking phone and talk to me nicely till its settle . when i stare into ur eyes , i was really hoping we would not fight . but i know , it can't be help . haizz . seriously i hate our fights . ANGRYNESS JEOLOUSY , please go away . pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee . kay i stop here . i tkley type . my eyes are already full of tears . SHAH , I REALLY NEED YOU HERE TO WIPE MY TEARS AND ASK ME TO BE STRONG . I NEED UR ENCOURAGING WORDS . AND I NEED YOU TO SUPPORT ME AND HELP ME GO THROUGH THIS . AND I REALLY NEED YOU TO BE HERE AND NEVER ALLOWING ME TO GIVE UP .

cause i really feel so dwn and feel like giving everything up ! but i know i can't . and i must go through this . hoping things would get better .